即使我仍孤独，但我不再让它控制我的生活

原标题：即使我仍孤独，但我不再让它控制我的生活

​一句话瑜伽，第259期Briohny（上） :我意识到忽视自己是不可持续的。I've realized that ignoring myself is unsustainable.

20年前我在15岁的时候发现了瑜伽，那时的我沉迷派对，得了厌食症。When I found yoga 20 years ago at the age of 15,I was partying too hard and suffering from eating disorders.

练了几年瑜伽后，我意识到我的瑜伽练习，都是为了麻痹或忽视自我怀疑的痛苦，以及不合群带来的不舒服的感觉。After a couple of years of practicing yoga,I realized that the ways I was acting outs were all in an effort to numb or ignore the pain of self-doubt and the uncomfortable feelings of not fitting in.

我从来没有觉得自己合群，中学和高中生活对我来说是非常痛苦的。I never felt like I fit in, middle and high- school were incredibly tough for me on that front.

但是，在过去的几年里，我意识到大部分的不安全感只存在于我的头脑中。But, over the last few years, I've realized that most of those insecurities only live in my head.

因为我觉得自己没有归属感，我是在孤立自己，实际上体现了我的孤独感。And, because I thought and felt like I didn't belong,I was isolating myself and actually manifesting my loneliness.

我排斥交朋友以及和其他人交心。I alienated myself from making friends and real connections with other people.

​即使现在这种想法还在，但我不再让它们控制我的生活。Although the thoughts haven't gone away, I don't let them control my life anymore.

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